I am not the kind of person who sleeps a lot. I wish I were--whenever I give myself a day of luxury and do that, it's wonderful. I'm actually ready to greet the day the next morning. But as it happens, I'm a natural night owl and I do some of my best work in the wee hours.
I also have a weird priority list. A friend who needs to talk, homework to get done, walking the dog, reading...all those have been placed ahead of sleep before. Sometimes I institutionalize it: one of my resolutions is to go back to reading fifteen minutes every day. I'd done this every day since I was five (when I was shocked at how little my mom read and vowed never to be as busy), but first semester of college pushed even reading to the wayside. Break and the extra time it's brought has made me realize how much I miss it. So the reinstated rule is that I must read fifteen minutes every day. Doesn't matter how sleepy I am or how late I'm up. The fifteen minutes are not optional.
Anyways, my point being, sleep is not high on my priority list. I've tried everything to change this from finishing my homework early (there's just too much) to scheduling blocks of "sleep" on my calendar (I didn't follow them). This particular musing was sparked by a conglomerate of circumstances that have convinced me to walk the dog tomorrow, a daily tradition I had planned to skip so I could catch up on rest. (I decided rest would be good after sleeping in the car on the way to the beach, at the beach, and then on the way home.)
The sensible part of me knows I need sleep to be healthy and all that. The selfish part of me says "what the hell are you doing, waking up early, that is not remotely okay." And then I think of the dog's soulful eyes and my logic goes out the nearest window.
I don't believe I had much of a point to this--there's that sleep-deprivation thing again--other than to express a reality (I don't sleep) and attempt to explain it (my priorities are whacked). So there you have it. I, meanwhile, am going to get ready for bed.
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